Chapter
4. Denis.
The
silence was protracted.
We
ran into the kitchen and, my first desire was to run away in panic, but I
suppressed it in myself, reminding that I, in general, have long been an adult
man and the escape will look strange. Lina
also looked depressed and tried not to look at me, as if she knew what I was
dreaming about. Her
fingers squeezed the mug so hard that they became completely white. But
she did not go away and I could not and did not want to leave.
— Have you and Anna been married long ago? — she suddenly asked, and, as if frightened of her
question, again clung to the mug, as if in the last hope.
I coughed. The question was
unexpected.
— We are
not married, — I
answered casually, when I cleared my throat. —
I suggested to her, but Anya decided that she was quite satisfied with sex with
me when she had no one. We
know each other all my life, so the wedding seemed to me logical, but … It
turned out that it turned out.
I suddenly realized. What the hell am I telling her? She’s a child at all! And
she does not need to know about our relationship with Ann.
— Can it be so?..
— How? — I asked in perplexity.
—
Well … without love, just by friendship?.. — she blushed.
I looked at the girl
with interest. Me
and earlier this question was occupied, but then it became all the same, especially
when I realized that it was very bad for the girls.
—
It turns out that you can, — I answered after a brief pause. Then smiled.
—
When more than five years you can not find yourself a girl, you become glad and
such.
And again I was surprised. Why am I telling this to her? What has
come over me, I have never been frank with anyone. And why? Ann
already knows me, but I have no more friends.
Angelina sighed.
— Sorry. I do not know why I started
to ask. Just
thought, if you are her husband, you are unlikely to be happy with the presence
of someone else’s house.
I waved it off.
— Even if Anya brings a regiment of soldiers
here, it will not matter to me … And let’s all on you, otherwise I feel too
old.
The girl
nodded and stood up.
-Perhaps I’ll go … Good night!
— Good night, — I said.
In the
kitchen, I sat for quite a while before it began to grow light. Rubbed fingers nervously on the
countertop; nibbled
knuckles and was afraid to admit that I wanted to go to Angelina’s room.
Persuaded
myself not to succumb to a rush — why this little girl to me, when in the next
room a mature woman is sleeping, with whom we have known for a long time what
we need from each other.
Yes,
and remembering all my relationships with women, I doubted that it would be at
least something, even despite our age difference.
It grew lighter. I
wearily rubbed the bridge of my nose, reminding myself that I still needed to
work all day. Finally
got up from the table and went to my apartment.































